Well, I don't know how much I'll be on the next few days. I'm hopeing I'll be able to figure out the internet connection stuff there, but we'll see. I'm working 4 days straight starting tomorrow around 9:30 am. And by straight, I even mean staying the night. Yep. 3 nights and 4 days staying with the Altiemerz (sp?) lady. Thank goodness Trudy is taking the grandkids with her (as well as the 2 dogs, Chewie and Rafiki - which actually I think translates into friend in Swahili, just 4 ur info, lol) on a little camping vacation thing, so if everything works out as planned, this will be my only days at the job without Jerry and Brandon until school in August.

Which brings me to my other topic. You know all of that SCGSAH/MPA decision crap torture stuff I had to mess with in the beginning of the summer? Yea, well, it's coming back to haunt me. Do any of you guys believe in like, divine intervention, or um... a little nudging by u know who? Just wondering what all of you think 'cause I'm kindof stuck wondering. I was given this little card to mail in to the SCGSAH with these little check boxes on it saying, "Yes I will come" or "No I will not", you know, like those notes we used to send in grade school: "Do you like me? Check yes or no and pass it back." lol. And well, I mailed it in with the "No I will not" box checked. But then like, sometime in the next week, I got this info from them in the mail about forms to fill out for the next school year. So I've kinda been like, "Okay, yea, whatev." Thinking that the computer just hasn't all the way processed the info that I'm not going and just printed out all the names/addresses of the people it had already, u know? But well, I keep getting stuff from them. Next came a personalized class schedule, then info on the tour to NYC the music kids get to take in October (going through stuff at Julliard and all those things, including normal NYC sightseeing), after that came school schedules for breaks and things, and now today I got another letter. Guys, now I've got a room assaignment and 2 suitemates. I mean, it's been over a month since I mailed that card, they had to have recieved it by now. I can't help wondering if this is God trying to tell me that I need to go there regardless of everything I previously decided, or if the school is just being really stubborn to not take no for an answer and is hopeing that if they keep throwing all this stuff at me I'll just come when school starts. Any ideas? I really need some help, and some major prayer especially. I thought I'd had this all decided already and I was trying to move on with my life, and something (or maybe Someone) isn't letting me. Do you think that's on purpose, or am I just being paranoid? It was sssssssssssooooooooooo hard for me to make the decision in the first place over a month ago, I don't want to put myself through that all over again. I don't know if I can do that and still come out in one piece. And now I'm even starting to question my motives and reasons for making the decision and just... oh, it hurts just thinking about it. I've got this WICKED headache and my medicine is not working worth anything. Gosh, I'm already so stressed. Anyway, please throw your thoughts at me, I could use the help, in all seriousness. This is all weighing very heavily on me. talk to ya'll later. hugs to all.